Wednesday, December 26, 2007
I'm so in the holiday mood this whole of december that i've totally thrown my assignments, school, blog, everything take takes up time aside! That includes sleep as well. Haha. I'm gonna try and recall what has happened this dec and squeeze it all into this post, short one! Bear with it ^^
Firstly, it started with the outing to Jurong Bird Park with my international friends (: Wierd right? All of a sudden go bird park, lol. At the Bird Park obviously there were birds, but no you cant find "Birds" in cages, if you get what i mean =x Started off with the penguin attraction, and i can tell you those penguins seriously never bath. Its not like those you see on National Geographic where they have nice white furs. The ones at BP are DIRTY! haha but they're cute la ok. Then there's the typical parrot attraction and you can spend timetalking to them like a retard, if you want to. And one of the most beautiful scenes to catch is the pink flamingoes. There were so many of them standing together it really paints a picture of peace and tranquility, that's if you're able to picture it. I seriously have to tell you about a bird that we saw, i cant remember the species, but it was FUGLY (fucking ugly) - Long BIG beak, huge dirty body, few strands of rough hair and coarse legs. OMG i totally dont wanna rmb how it looked like. Ok, then it started to rain very badly .. And we took out our umbrellas and walked under the heavy rain, how romantic is that? haha. We also got to see eagles, vultures, and the bird that catches fish with its mouth (cant rmb the name), and unfortunately the ostrich part is under renovation s didnt see it. Don't even ask me about Bird Shows or what cause it was raining and everything was cancelled. After that went to Bongo Burgers to eat. I swear the food is nice, later tell you about this bongo burger.
Next attraction is Night Safari, with my mum and sis. This is totally wierd cause some people might be thinking: bryan at naight safari and bird park? you see wrongly la thats not bryan, lol. But i was there. The experience was fantastic, totally. You know the times where you see cheetahs and jaguars on tv, and you might just feel that oh they're fierce, but you don't really get the feeling of "FEAR". Well, i got it. I was at the black pantha attraction and it was pacing back and forth in front of the glass. I was squatting down just right in front of it and i tell you the feeling is horrible. My legs were trembling, and i could feel being eaten up any moment. First time in my life i've come so close with a WILD ANIMAL. Then the "Creatures of the Night Show" was also fantastic. Its very interactive in a way where it engages the audience throughout the perf, surprising you with many many things which i shouldn't say (you have to visit to find out) and the howling wolf is soooooo cuteeeeee! (ok i'm getting tired already .. cut short ..) Ended the day at Bongo Burgers again and i tried a different meal, but same fantastic taste. I told myself next time i dont know where to eat i will make a trip to BP and NS to have Bongo Burgers because its really great. Sad thing abut NS is we aren't allowed to use flash when taking pictures as it may hurt the animals' eyes, so we didnt take any. But well, memory stays in your mind.
Then comes pre-xmas, xmas and post-xmas. Before xmas, Chin Ch and I + some other friends went Orchard to take pictures of the light ups, displays an performances. Its actually quite fun just to walk down Orchard Road, w/o shopping, just chatting and aking pitures. Lots of laughs and crazy stuns like standing in the middle of the road facing the on-coming cars and taking pictures of the whole stretch of road in front of you. haha fabulous. Oh ya, i saw Lucinda Leong (Winner of FHM GND 2007). Then xmas went to dbl0 with YC LZ and company. They were crazy lor, seriously, 30mins is all it takes, omfg. I'm not gonna tell you what we did. But well, we had a Gold Label and a few jugs of house pours. Crazy dancing all night long + Dinesh at the counter bar working and giving me free drinks, and oh i saw James (RVF rider, previously tgt with ARC members), and i saw Cheekee but TzeHui wasn't there. The smoking room is totally stuffy, even i cant stand the smell, had to end up smoking outside dbl0. Was suppose to meet Steph, but she tired cant wait for Dinesh to of work, then suppose to meet Amelia, but she at Geylang and i dont wanna go there so after that we went to eat Ba Kut Teh and more drinking session and then headed home. Post xmas, went to gay with chin again .. Plaza Sing watch movie - The Warlords (teaches you never to trust anyone, not even sworn brothers) And i shared cab with 2 strangers home. haha.
I'm really sorry if this post seem unorganized, messy and lost cause i type halfway and i feel like slping already. Next post will be mainly on pictures only (: (when i have to time to upload) Happy Merry Christmas people ~ and gdnights ~
- 3:51:00 AM;
Monday, December 24, 2007
For 7 years i've been trying to find her, 7 years. Guess what, i jus stumbled upon her friendster and i'm like oh-my-god? Is that you? O.o She turned messaging off and add friend need email. How am i suppose to talk to her???
- 1:53:00 AM;
Thursday, December 13, 2007
It's funny how i'm always able to get along much better with people who are older than me, rather than people around my age.
- 11:48:00 PM;
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
It is now nearing the end of the year, and the start of a new year. Thinking back, this year has really flew by rather quickly. First half of the year i practically wasted my time dreaming away, not attending school all, and now the second half of the year i'm trying to catch up in a race like i'm hopping on a leg. I just feel like i've not grown at all, in terms of maturity and being more sensible. Honestly, i am dissappointed in myself.
In what ways have i changed? - None. In what ways have i not changed? - I'm still smoking; though i'm trying to strive hard in school, i'm still skipping lessons once in a while; I commit sins you can never think of; I am still revolving around the word "I" (Self - Centered). Sometimes i ask myself why haven't i changed? Most of the time i get the reply "Why should i change?".
Yes, why should i change? I am happy the way i am now. My circle of friends are increasing, though many of them couldn't really be regarded as friends because they come and look for you in need, and disappears when there's fun, and some of them are just what we always say "Hi - Bye" friends. I have enough money to spend, enough for me to carry on living luxurious and most importantly, i am me. I am the way i am suppose to be, i don't change because of anyone, to look good in front of people and entice them to like me or whatsoever. I have always lived abide these rules of my own. And if you did realise, what i've said so far are all revolving around myself, like what yy said, i am self centered.
There are nights when i just sit by the window, over a cuppa vodka or chivas or simply beer, enjoying my puffs and looking up into the sky. Then, i started thinking about the people around me, those who take advantage of me being nice, and those who sincerly care for me and showers me with everending love. I asked myself, what have i done in return for these people? To those who favour me, have i repaid them? To those who detests me, have i taken my revenge? No, not at all.
It is by those rules that i have set for myself, to experience everything i can in life; to be who i am and not change for the sake of others; and always be truthful and not follow the footsteps of this hypocritical world. However, when think about those around me, it makes me ponder: Me being happy, or making people around me happy, is more important? I'm not referring to friends or the public, i am talking about my parents and my grandmother. Every parent wants their child to live a life heads up high, they want them to make a mark in history and strive a successful path in life. They have so many expections, which technically i feel that i SHOULD follow. I cannot deny the fact that everything i have now belongs to them, were given by them, and were made possible by them, right? But then again, if i heed every of their request, and be who they want me to be, rather than me being myself, how would things turn out to be?
So you see the dilema i'm in now. I am portraying myself to be as nice as i can, not to be like how i used to be - Violent and vulgar. But people take it as i am gay. It's ok though, not really hurting cause they don't really make it seem like an attack to me, more of just making fun out of me, i am fine with it. But how will things turn out to be if i change myself to fit into society, to make everyone around me like me? Would i lose my sense of identity? Or would i acquire a new sense of identity? These are things which i will never want to experiment.
After saying all these, nothing is going to change. I will still be me, and i will still behave the way i am. I just want to write all these so that one day in future, should i ever regret living by those rules that i set for myself, i can look back at today's post and say "It is my fault, entirely mine, and no one else to blame".
Life isn't about just passing each day, staying happy and enjoying every single moment. It is more of finding a meaning to it. Some choose the way of religion, people like me will just think about it and never do a thing about it. The hardest person to understand is yourself, that is what i feel.
- 11:43:00 PM;
